Leave Me Alone

Would you understand
if I told you
that I never wanted to see you again?
You would probably wonder why
because you never
done anything to hurt me
and have been a good friend.
Well, I'm afraid that's the problem
because I decided a long time ago
that I wanted more than
your friendship
and I'm terrified of what you'll say or do
if you ever find out.
In my mind,
I make up little scenarios
(women are notorious for them, you know)
and in each one,
you laugh and walk away.
Since I am so afraid of being hurt,
I think sometimes it would be
almost better
if I just went on being alone
and stopped dreaming about you
and the love I want to give you.

Who is this written about? Who knows? Some guy I had a thing for, obviously. I don't know when this was written either so I can't even begin to speculate. God, sometimes I read this stuff and think "Could you be any more pathetic with all this unrequited love?" And then I remember the guys I actually did date. And the answer is "Oh, hell yes."

Sometimes I really love being single.